InsyaAllah, one day.
(n.) The irrational fear of holes, pods, circles, or cracks, especially those found in nature; i.e lotus pods and bot fly infestations.
I am honestly, and really, and finally, feeling very frustrated about how I tend to trust people too much at times to the point where little things they do to hurt me, breaks me.
& then I wind up being alone, in my bed, crying - thinking why and how this all happened. How could I have prevented it.
The phrase, “You can never really depend on anyone else but yourself” is really not overrated. It’s true.
I tell myself countless of times that I will change but I end up being too trusting & happy again. Till the next thing happens and my cycle repeats.
So now, I’m writing this post so that I can re-read it and remind myself of how broken I feel when the ones I trust hurt me. & That I should start being more independent. I should ammend the ways of certain things I do.